| HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!
i love you so much. more than words can say..
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| if only you would treat me like my own person, instead of in her shadow, then i would be okay. i want to know that i have my own identity, my own ability to do things, to search, to find whatever it was i needed for the path ahead. to put in the effort needed for what is to come next, and not to fall short of my responsibilities. just let me be. assistance is there if i need it, i know. ____________________________
on the other hand, i head back to school in about 2 weeks. i'm really excited. i miss the refreshing freedom i get there. but i sometimes feel that i haven't done this summer justice. for more than half my summer, i had been studying tediously, and the rest, mostly relaxing around the house sitting at my computer most of the day. i have barely seen anybody, which is probably my fault. at the same time, i feel like i needed to get away from it all, to just find some balance between life and studying. i feel that i've disciplined myself this summer to the usual study habits i had in high school, being able to just sit down and start an assignment without hesitation. i lost some of that when i started college, just wanting to run around. haha. we'll see if i can keep it up. this semester's critical, hopefully i don't kill myself haha jk. but other than that, i'm just trying to enjoy the rest of summer. :)
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| suddenly i feel so distant.
"so what happened to bulletproof weeks in your arms?" mmm..i wish i had seen that concert.
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| heheh :) so SJDA called me today and asked me if i wanted to fill in an opening for San Jose's Got Talent for tomorrow. sadly, i declined because of the late notice... maybe next year.. i have other priorities. =/
lalala ook more laterr..
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| some days, i don't know how you put up with me. there's always a reason for my feeling of annoyance, yet i'll never let you know it. i assume it'll always pass, as long as i don't think about it. but i think you know quite well the reason, yet you ask anyway, and it breaks me down. i'm sorry.
<3 tina.
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